Adding “Mom” To My Repertoire

May 18, 2016

Pre-read: this one has been a hard blog post to write. I don’t feel like I am still fully explaining myself in the below brain dump. Either way, it’s what I’ve been feeling the last month and I thought I’d share.

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Soon, like really soon, I get to add a new title to my name. Mom. And, wow, is that a big responsibility! One of the biggest struggles I’ve had as of late, is the idea that I could lose myself in this new “mom phase” of my life.

For some time now, I have just been Amanda, ______:

  • Girlfriend
  • Wife
  • Daughter
  • Sister
  • Designer
  • Business Owner
  • Sen’s mama
  • Coffee lover
  • Idea master
  • Travel obsessed

Throughout this pregnancy the one thing that has scared me the most is the idea of giving up my life and everything I love. Moms do everything for their kids and family. They sacrifice who they used to be for who they need and should become. Or at least that is what I thought.

I will love my kids with all my heart but I want to TRY (keyword) to remain true to myself. I totally get that I’ll change but I don’t want to lose any of the words above.

I Can’t Contain My Excitement


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Don’t get me wrong, I am so excited to become a mommy. I have always wanted a family. One that will grow and become a bigger purpose for living. To raise fun, active, and respectful children that grow to be their own unique and weird individuals. But that’s not all I want to accomplish.

I recently read an article that opened my eyes to the idea of being an individual who is also a mom. And you should’ve seen the comments, why are other mom’s so judge-y? And I also read the book, Bringing Up Bebe. In that book, you see middle class french women who care for and love their children and family but also believe that they are people too who have hopes, dreams and desires in life. My goal is to emulate those women.

But the Guilt!

But then there is the idea of guilt. Already I’m starting to feel guilty for saying all these things. Shouldn’t I want to be a mom above all else? Shouldn’t giving up everything for my kids be a noble idea? Why do I feel bad for wanting to return to work? I already feel society judging me.

There Is Still So Much I Want To Do

I still want many things from life and I need to remember that having a family doesn’t mean that I give all of that up.

I still want to travel alone with my husband and grow our marriage. I still want to work and grow my career. I still want to have “adult time” with my friends. I want to grow my business and start new ones.

So, in my opinion, becoming a mom will only add to my other life titles. And it’s a big responsibility and a huge life change. One that I won’t understand until it’s actually here. But I have to remember to stay true to me.

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I’m sure I’ll look back on this and laugh hysterically at my naiveness. Or maybe I will thank myself for remembering how important it is to stay true. Either way, I’m excited for this new adventure we are on and I can’t wait to see what comes.

And please don’t take this article as selfish or ungrateful. I am so grateful that I get to be a mom. But you can’t blame me for being a bit scared. Or maybe you can. That’s your prerogative.

Holy crap, you guys. Baby is coming.

12 Going Home Outfits For The New Infant In Your Life

April 26, 2016

As I begin packing our hospital bag, I am struck with a decision. What will she wear home? Wow. It’s really not that important (to me) but there are so many cute options, how am I to choose? If you, like me, are having issues or looking for inspiration, here are 12 adorable options for the lady, gent, or surprise bebe.

P.s. A lot of these are available in multiple sizes, so they don’t have to be strictly going home outfits. YAY!

embroidered romper • spring floral hoodie and shorties • 3-piece jersey boy set

sailor one-pieceyellow striped onesiegrey ‘welcome home’ one-piece

unicorn onesie and pantmulti-color shortspink one-piece

baby boy square sethot pink onesie • pants and hat set

What did/ are you planning for your baby to wear home?

Bonus points for pics!

Week 30-34 // Pregnancy Update

April 20, 2016

It’s been awhile. A lot has been going on folks. But generally all is well and I’m feeling great. I can’t believe that in 39-ish days we’ll be parents. Every kick and every hiccup brings me joy and such excitement. I can’t wait to meet her and see who/what she looks like. She is already beautiful to me. We’ve been jamming to Death Cab for Cutie, Sublime, and Beyonce in the car on the way to work so she can get some good music in her before arriving.

  • Length: 17 inches
  • Weight: ~4 pounds
  • Fruit Size: Cabbage
  • Geek Size: Basketball hoop

*Based on 34 weeks.

  • Grace is heads down for now but who knows if that will last…hopefully it does.
  • A mean case of the heartburn. Whatcha gonna do?
  • Getting up and moving is hard – the struggle is real you guys.

Week 30-34

Feeling: Good. It is getting harder to get around and move but generally I feel great. I also feel incredibly blessed. We had the first shower last weekend and we got so many wonderful and needed items from our family. I can’t believe how generous everyone is.

Nursery: The nursery is almost done and i’m in love. It’s exactly what I was hoping for. I have a few more decor items to purchase but thanks to my amazing mom and step-dad we have a crib and mattress. It’s absolutely a great room that will grow with her. Major props to B for doing all the hard work.

Shopping: I can’t help myself sometimes baby clothing and gear is too cute to pass up. Here are some recent purchases along with things that are still on the wish list. 🙂

shoppingSleep: I’m sleeping well still. The nice cool breeze that comes in at night really helps and we did turn the air on earlier this week (GASP). I feel that getting out of bed is the hardest part. HA! Also we have a neighbor that has car issues or is missing his exhaust and I get really annoyed when he rips down the street at 4:30am every day. I think once the baby comes, if that’s still an issue we’ll have to talk to them. I can’t imagine how angry I’d be if we just got her to sleep and she woke up because of that dang car.

Symptoms: Heartburn, check. Swelling, check. Slow to move, check. Okay that last one isn’t a technical symptom but it seriously it’s putting a damper on my normal level of activity.

Movement: She has been active and getting hiccups daily. I think it’s absolutely adorable that she has hiccups. I just love feeling that. When she doesn’t move, I do get anxious. We had an ultrasound last week and were able to see her face and she was in there sucking on her thumb and it was amazing. She has features, you guys.

Best of the Week:

  • Week 30: We moved out of our hastings office and moved into a new building on April 4. It is amazing.
  • Week 31: Tried my hand at dying fabric and a burp cloth. Super easy and tons of fun. Be careful, it’s addicting.
  • Week 32: B got an awesome gig working with Evolve Labs. I’m so proud of him.
  • Week 33: Seeing baby girl in the ultrasound sucking her thumb and our first baby shower.
  • Week 34: Hiccups, all day, erry day.

Goal: Don’t buy anything for baby until after showers. Okay… after today. For real.

Other ongoings:
I have to go through my photos to remember. Here are some things we’ve been busy with…

  • Date nights. We need to go on more before she arrives!
  • Wall weaving. I’ve been spending a lot of time creating wall weaves for various people and it’s just plain fun and relaxing for me.
  • Drastically reduced my commute time by half now that we are working in Woodbury! YAY!
  • Trying (key word) to walk more.
  • Visited with a pediatrician and really liked her!
  • Going to Minnebar this weekend. Excited but we’ll see how long I last before getting tired.
  • Working with 3 clients on web and branding projects. Having a blast with each one. 🙂

Articles I read:

What to Buy for a Baby
Meal Prep (gotta make some freezer meals)
MMM… Naturally Flavored Water
Fun DIY Bookcase

Week 28-29 // Pregnancy Update

March 21, 2016

Holy crap, you guys! 71 days until May 30 arrives. She is moving all about and loving life in there. I’m doing well and getting bigger by the week.

  • Length: 16 inches
  • Weight: ~3 pounds
  • Fruit Size: Pineapple
  • Geek Size: Barbie Convertible

*Based on 29 weeks.

  • Grace still has to chub out a bit in the next few weeks to get up to birth weight.
  • Meaning Mom will be getting bigger. Ugh.
  • The buds for permanent teeth are forming in her gums!

Week 28 – 29

Feeling: Relieved!! Last week I had the 3-hour glucose test and passed. I was really worried the night before but luckily it went well.

Health: Week 28 was super warm so I did some walking at night with Sen and during the day at work. It was nice on my birthday so I spent the day outside and walked with my mom for a bit. It’s week 30 tomorrow so the goal is to walk 3 times this week and do some leg exercises.

Nursery: Breon has painted the trim, walls and doors. He has a few areas to touch up and the closet doors (eww) to finish up but then the room is ready. He has also set up the crib which is so pretty and sturdy. I highly recommend the Babyletto Hudson Crib… as of right now….with no baby in it. 😉A few weekends ago, I painted a watermelon in watercolor, scanned that, and made a pattern and had it printed on fabric. It came out a little bigger than I anticipated but I love it nonetheless.

Maternity Clothes: After celebrating my step-dads birthday at Savoy’s Pizza, we drove to his sister’s house where my two cousins (who are also pregnant) were all hanging out. Aunt Mary decided to gift us with a super cute tees since we are all preggers. Aren’t they cute?


Sleep: As long as I have numerous pillows around me, I sleep great. I’ve been snuggling around one for the past week. If I don’t put one between my legs, my hips usually hurt in the morning. I am going to take a second to appreciate the good sleep I’m getting, as I know that later on in the third trimester I’ll start getting uncomfortable. Ahhh… sleep.

Symptoms: My ring finger is swollen so I don’t know if I’ll be wearing my ring anymore… which is a bummer. Otherwise, I’m good. Blood pressure is spot on. Glucose test was good. Weight gain is generally normal though I wish it were less.

Movement: She is kicking and moving all around. I love it. The other night I was watching TV and breon and I both saw her move my entire stomach. It’s very cool and weird at the same time. There is a baby in there!

Best of the Week:

  • Week 28: My birthday was fun. I did all the things I wanted. Shopping, eating, walking, and relaxing.
  • Week 29: Passing the glucose test was everything! I needed that.

Goals: Walk at least 3 times this week for at least 20 minutes per. Bonus points for a weekend swim.

Other ongoings: This week, I purchased a coffee table and console table for the living room and B put them all together. He has been a rock star with the stuff around the house and it’s great for my nesting OCD! At work, we move out on April 1 so these will be my last few weeks of driving to Hastings. That is WEIRD. One day (April 4) we’ll be working out of the new corporate office in Woodbury. YAY!